His problem : depression, alcohol.

Arrived at the seminar after a few days stay at the psychiatric Hospital Sainte-Marie in Privas, due

to an attempted suicide.

We hesitated taking him because of his situation.

First testimony

5 days after taking iboga.

Toutankhamon,

I take this name to testify on the seminar of 11/21/2003, those in my group

will recognize me.

First of all, I would like to thank Gerard and Jeanne for their support. I thank also

the all group that was extraordinary for me and particularly one person with whom

I had a perfect osmosis, who knows who he is.

So I would like to write this testimony to say that iboga has helped me in my

spiritual quest !

Me, who gave everything to a woman for love, 8 months of my life to help her start her

own restaurant, then the brutal rupture, here I fall lower than the ground (depression,

followed by an attempted suicide, missed by chance). My suffering lasted 1 month,

so I decided to commit myself in the psychiatric ward for a week before the seminar, because it was impossible to forget her, thinking that there was only her !

I got out of psychiatry 1 day before the seminar.

I arrived at the seminar, seeing in what state I was, Gerard confessed to me four

days later that they almost refused to let me participate.

I can assure you that iboga made me travel and see BAD and GOOD things and

superb visions.

While I was resting, iboga started working on me, in the morning I was peaceful,

I saw that this painful relationship didn’t even exist because iboga showed me

that I received more suffering than joy from it, and that I was treated like a dog that

you order around, so I erased it.

I must say that since that morning, I had forgotten this person.

I was in full reconstruction.

Gerard called me the “miraculous one”.

I want to state that iboga can make you forget a deception and help you get

yourself back together, because I read a testimony from someone for whom it

didn’t work.

I stand here, you who reads this testimony and are on a quest, no matter which, come

and discover iboga and have a good trip.

Thanks again to everyone and particularly Florence.

Second testimony : two months later.

Toutankhamon,

I arrive at the castle of Liviers, near Privas which is a beautiful place full of history,

I meet the rest of the group and my roommates, everyone is here for different reasons.

I met Gerard in my restaurant and we happened to talk about iboga, I was strongly

interested in the fact that iboga could make you regress in your present life and your

past lives as well,  I was not disappointed on this matter, but iboga made me forget my

recent break up.

So we find ourselves in a room in front of Mallendi, the shaman, and here he asked us

to introduce ourselves and reveal why we came to discover iboga.

Mallendi told us that tonight it’s going to be a competition for whom throws up the

most, that we must ask ourselves what we were looking for and let the plant act, I must

Emphasize that one must let go completely with no fears, anxieties, etc…

We had a rendezvous at 10 pm in a large room, after taking a shower and wearing

a clothe.

Here everyone installed themselves for a long night until 8 am.

FIRST NIGHT

First dose of iboga, we stand up and walk to the altar near Mallendi, where he

gives us the first teaspoon with a glass with some tea from another plant, people

say iboga is bitter, but I didn’t think so, after yes, because the more you eat, the more

the bitter taste takes you from the stomach to the mouth until the crucial moment

when you throw up.

Again, I must say that the key to success is to let go of one’s fears and anxieties,

and the taste. Because one must force himself to take it, and I didn’t have to because

I had lost everything, so let go !

Then Mallendi gets ready for the ritual, he paints himself with white and red paints,

gets dressed, all this accompanied by music that takes you away !!

Mallendi walks by and gives you a second spoon after about 20 minutes, you start to

loose the notion of time, Mallendi didn’t want anyone to wear a watch, then the third,

and I started to have doubts because I was expecting visions, but nothing, fourth spoon,

I still doubt on the power of the plant. Mallendi makes us stand up in the middle of

the room and makes us jump two times to thank the plant, here my doubts started to

dissipate because I had poor balance just like when you are really drunk.

The fifth spoon, he asked us to eat it without water, which takes a considerable

effort, because you must keep it in your mouth to make a ball with your saliva,

and the taste is horrible.

From here, you could hear the reaction, one started throwing up and all the others

Followed, except for me. Then the sixth spoon, I start panicking because I feel like

throwing up but nothing comes, so I had the idea to put my fingers in my mouth

to force myself to throw up, Mallendi saw me and came to tell me “Hey boss! You

don’t need to do that !! Let the plant work, when she decides you will vomit !! And sit up, don’t lye down because iboga will lye down too!!’” that’s what I did, but still

no visions.

The sixth spoon came and went, I started vomiting from deep inside all the nasty things

one keeps inside (aggression, stress, nervousness, everything that we don’t need but makes us feel bad), still no visions, but all of a sudden I noticed a string of light coming

from the flames of the candles, I decided to concentrate on the candles.

I focus on the candles, I saw fine strings of all colors,  like laser beams in night clubs, at first they only measured a few centimeters and the more I looked the longer they would get and stretch towards me.

At one moment they all arrived at the level of my solar plexus and I felt warmth, love, happiness, good feelings !

I understood that God did not forget me and that I was a being made out of light and that I must have confidence in myself.

I didn’t believe in anything anymore, I am a non practicing Catholic, I took a lot of those rays that comforted me and made me have confidence in myself. It was the only vision I had in respect to the others in the group, I had to find myself in the deepest of myself.

I had to take one more spoon and I started vomiting more and more. For me, it was the longest night of my life.

At 8 am, Mallendi tells us we can go to bed, exhausted I lie down thinking I could sleep, but no, at this time your brain is deprogramming and reprogramming itself thanks to you and the plant, because you start sorting between the good and the bad, the good or bad actions you did or endured, and I understand why they call iboga “the plant of truth” because you can’t lie to yourself, it’s an auto psychoanalysis between you and you, and here! You have a second chance to be who you are really meant to be, without any conditioning coming from society.

I found myself facing my problem with my ex, I was ready to kill myself for her, thinking I was doing well, but the plant asked me what she had done for me and I answered sincerely, because like I said you can’t lie to yourself under iboga, so until 10 am I resolved a lot of my problems, so I decided to get up.

I try to think about my ex, I realize that I have forgotten her, like she had not existed.

I also had a sensation of not having a brain anymore, replaced by water because everything was clear for me, no more worries, the people in the group couldn’t believe it, because like they said “I was flipped over like a crêpe”.

The rest of the day I spoke with the group and we exchanged our experiences, it seemed a long time because I was torture by hunger which made me crack, I hate more fruits than expected which caused Gerard to reprimand me by telling me that if I would have a hard time that night, I would be the only one to blame.

SECOND NIGHT

This time iboga is mixed with honey and shaped in little balls, it intensifies the effects ten times, so Mallendi walks by us three times, and I can tell you, here you take off like a ball, laser beams again, the rhythm of music is more aggressive which helps you take off fast, and mallendi prepares himself like the prior night.

After one or two hours, I don’t really know since you have no notion of time and no watches allowed, Mallendi said “let time deal with time”, I actually found this night to go by to fast, since I was very comfortable in my visions as you will realize.

Mallendi says it’s time to pass to serious matters and to start concentrating, the cover our faces with a white powder, and they positioned a mirror in front of you, so that you may enter your subconscious, Mallendi walks by us and throws some white powder and then some kind of liquid on the mirrors while speaking some incantations, and now we must concentrate on ourselves in the mirror !

First vision,

I start fixing at myself, I see a white face with two black holes where my eyes are, nothing happens.

I decided to have some water, then concentrate again, I look straight into my eyes and ask myself : “who am I ?” All of a sudden my face disappears and successively three heads of an incredible monstrosity arrive, I got scared and took my eyes off the mirror, but something forced me to look again and find the reason for this vision. Here is one of the fears that one must overcome to go forward with iboga and have confidence in what we see, and this is a problem or block that we carry and that must be addressed.

So I concentrate again and here come those famous faces, the first one looked like half man half rat, the second like “elephant man” and the third a leper.

So I thought that in my life, I felt crushed, humiliated, that I was a big shit, at this moment I understood that I was carrying three anterior lives of suffering and pain, and the vision disappeared.

Second vision,

I could see myself doubled, myself next to myself, intrigued, I get closer to the mirror and start talking to them by pointing my finger at them and telling one he is the good and the other the bad, no answers, I alternate, still no answer. I had a dilemma, I can’t find the answer and I am stuck on this vision for a while. Then I had an idea and thought that there could not be just good or bad. All of a sudden a third face slide in between the two, I found the right balance and the answer.

Third vision,

I saw myself as an emperor Ming all dressed in black leather with red stripes on my upper outfit, I commanded an army of some thousands men, all blood thirsty brutes.

I understood that during that life I sought revenge for the three previous lives of suffering by killing thousands of people, I felt ashamed and in disarray.

Fourth vision,

I see myself as a Pharaoh, and not any pharaoh, Toutankhamon. It’s funny because all my life I had thought I had had a past life in Egypt because I was always attracted by that civilization. During this vision I felt a lot of joy and a great satisfaction because I had a beautiful life. Then I saw myself decompose like in the film the “mummy”, embalmed, mummified and then put in that famous sarcophagus and my vision disappeared.

Last vision,

Let’s not forget that during the visions some throw up, I still didn’t, probably because of all those fruits I ate. But here comes Mallendi with an extra dose that I took with no hesitation, but down she went and up she came, I started vomiting everything, fruit jam, I felt relieved, concentrate on the mirror but nothing !

The laser beams are back, I decided to grab them with my hands, I focused on them but they disappeared, but all of a sudden I saw fishing nets coming down from the top to the middle of each one of my eyes, then came out of my eyes in white light to fuse together, this created a beam of white light ( like at the end of the movie “Ghost”), it measured approximately 6 centimeters in height and 4 wide, then this beam start going slowly towards my heart and enter it slowly, I felt ecstasy, I felt a pure and sincere love fill my heart, the joy of being alive, to give what I had received, to share !

I kept taking in those laser beams until Mallendi said it was time to go, I was a little disappointed, the night seemed to have gone by too fast.

EPILOGUE

Two months after the seminar, here are some of the changes that the plant has

brought me :

• - I don’t drink alcohol just to party

• - I feel Zen, relaxed

• - confident in myself, I don’t say that I am worthless anymore !

• - I don’t feel aggressive or afraid

• - I eat less  

• - I am calm, I was always on the edge.  

I want to thank the all group with whom I was, some of us became friends, I would like to say one thing about Mallendi, for me he is someone that you can trust with no fears and someone very humble, let’s not forget Gerard, his wife Jeanne and Patrick that oversaw and accompanied us during the seminar.

Once again, if you want to take this trip with iboga, you must let go, thanks to iboga you will open doors that you could not imagine because they sleep inside of you !

I dedicate this testimony to Florence !!

Touthankamon

Remarques

“Toutankhamon” is still doing well.

He came over with one of his friends who was an alcoholic, and him too has found a balanced life.

He often comes to help us with the seminars.