A vision of god ?

An unfinished vision… Finally finished 4 years later

An empty world, flat, pretty dark. It is crossed from left to right, very fast, by sheets of plates seen from the edge.

I tried to change my “point of view” to see the top of the plates, impossible. I think to myself “normally, I should be seeing things. I am going to make them appear”.

I think about a Ferrari : a red Ferrari races towards me and drives over my head.

I think about a plane : a plane races towards me and flies over my head.

I think about the village where I was born, where I spent my childhood and where my mother still lives : it appears to me the same way you can see it from the road near the river. In a very precise and detailed manner. But right away, a wall of incased wood erects itself hiding the village, with a sign “forbidden” or “danger” (I can’t remember). Impossible to get through.

I think about my grandmother and don’t see anything. I reflect : “I have two grandmothers, I must be more precise”. I think about “granny” : nothing.

I gave up, I advance in the no man’s land.

After a little while, some kind of wall made out of hard rubber (or leather ?), of a dark red brown color advances slightly from the right and stops right in front of me. I notice a point from which it started to wrinkle, the vision changes and looks like a sphincter that starts to open. It reaches 30/40 cm in diameter.. The hole is circular, the perimeter is colored in red and black stripes a few centimeters wide, in the direction of the axle. It opens up to a circular gallery, of constant section, but with an irregular path, which makes me think of a tunnel dug up by a worm. The color of the walls is red-orange like the ground in Africa. At the end of the tunnel, a white light pretty strong (but not blinding).

I try to go through the hole: impossible. The hole closes up and the wall disappear.

A new wall similar to the first advances toward me. Same scenario…it disappears.

A third wall advances, this time, slightly from the left. Same thing…it disappears.

Then no more memories of my visions.

Gerard’s visions four years later

I went with Mallendi to administer iboga to a group in a castle in the south-west.

I simply took a spoonful of iboga to stay awake. I went to bed around 5 am.

As soon as I lie down, I see two little red heads…

And find myself in a cave.

I float under the ceiling of the cave, it’s pretty big, the rocky walls are red brown.

At the center of the cave the ground rises up to form a pedestal, on top of which is a small statue. I observe it from the top.

It’s shape is constantly changing, in a soft manner : it’s an African statue at first,  byeri Fang style, then a Christian roman statue, then a Greek god, then Buddha, then Shiva, etc… all the religions of the world are represented and fuse together harmoniously and for eternity one into the other.

I admire this permanent transformation-fusion, then I take a step back in the cave.

In one spot, the walls have collapsed and with the ground form a perfect equilateral triangle.

I go through it, still floating, and keep following my path. I am now in a tunnel the color of laterite.

All of a sudden, I find myself outside and here, in front of me, the vision from 4 years ago: a dark brown wall made out of  leather-rubber , an opening, a long tunnel and at the end the light…

Seven times in a row, I found myself floating in this cave. I then realized that all the walls and the ground were engraved with thousands of signs in all the languages known and forgotten, mathematical or chemical formulas, looking back, I was sure, all the knowledge of  the universe…

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  Some years later, I keep in me those images of an unbelievable precision knowing that, at any moment, I could draw my vision. One day I will…

  …and I keep helping others with IBOGA, since it is my website that you are consulting.

An empty world, flat, pretty dark. It is crossed from left to right, very fast, by sheets of plates seen from the edge.

I tried to change my “point of view” to see the top of the plates, impossible. I think to myself “normally, I should be seeing things. I am going to make them appear”.

I think about a Ferrari : a red Ferrari races towards me and drives over my head.

I think about a plane : a plane races towards me and flies over my head.

I think about the village where I was born, where I spent my childhood and where my mother still lives : it appears to me the same way you can see it from the road near the river. In a very precise and detailed manner. But right away, a wall of incased wood erects itself hiding the village, with a sign “forbidden” or “danger” (I can’t remember). Impossible to get through.

I think about my grandmother and don’t see anything. I reflect : “I have two grandmothers, I must be more precise”. I think about “granny” : nothing.

I gave up, I advance in the no man’s land.

After a little while, some kind of wall made out of hard rubber (or leather ?), of a dark red brown color advances slightly from the right and stops right in front of me. I notice a point from which start some folds, the vision changes and looks like a sphincter that starts to open. It reaches 30/40 cm in diameter.. The hole is circular, the perimeter is colored in red and black stripes a few centimeters wide, in the direction of the axle. It opens up to a circular gallery, of constant section, but with an irregular path, which makes me think of a tunnel dug up by a worm. The color of the walls is red-orange like the ground in Africa. At the end of the tunnel, a white light pretty strong (but not blinding).

I try to go through the hole: impossible. The hole closes up and the wall disappear.

A new wall similar to the first advances toward me. Same scenario…it disappears.

A third wall advances, this time, slightly from the left. Same thing…it disappears.

Then no more memories of my visions.

Gerard’s visions four years later  "a vision of god"

I went with Mallendi to administer iboga to a group in a castle in the south-west.

I simply took a spoonful of iboga to stay awake. I went to bed around 5 am.

As soon as I lie down, I see two little red heads…

And find myself in a cave.

I float under the ceiling of the cave, it’s pretty big, the rocky walls are red brown.

At the center of the cave the ground rises up to form a pedestal, on top of which is a small statue. I observe it from the top.

It’s shape is constantly changing, in a soft manner : it’s an African statue at first,  byeri Fang style, then a Christian roman statue, then a Greek god, then Buddha, then Shiva, etc… all the religions of the world are represented and fuse together harmoniously and for eternity one into the other.

I admire this permanent transformation-fusion, then I take a step back in the cave.

In one spot, the walls have collapsed and with the ground form a perfect equilateral triangle.

I go through it, still floating, and keep following my path. I am now in a tunnel the color of laterite.

All of a sudden, I find myself outside and here, in front of me, the vision from 4 years ago: a dark brown wall made out of  leather-rubber , an opening, a long tunnel and at the end the light…

Seven times in a row, I found myself floating in this cave. I then realized that all the walls and the ground were engraved with thousands of signs in all the languages known and forgotten, mathematical or chemical formulas, looking back, I was sure, all the knowledge of  the universe…

 ..................

Some years later, I keep in me those images of an unbelievable precision knowing that, at any moment, I could draw my vision. One day I will…

…and I keep helping others with IBOGA, since it is my website that you are consulting.

Remarques

Notes:

After taking iboga the first time:

Gerard who had been treated for depression for years has completely stopped his treatments and doesn’t see a psychiatrist anymore.

When he took iboga, he was taking the following medications:

“Humoryl” (toloxatone 200mg): 1 dose three times a day.

“Lexomyl” (bromazepan 6mg 10 mg): ¼ of a pill three times a day.

“Stilnox” (zolpidem 10mg): 1 pill before sleeping

Gerard had stopped drinking digestives for a long time, has stopped drinking any aperitif as well as beer. He still drinks red wine with meals, but his consumption has dropped to two glasses.

Gerard was Bwiti Fang initiated about ten years ago when he took iboga (to test an extraction with lemons).

This might explains the lack of visions, or better, of that unique vision of the Goal to reach, because he had many visions during his initiation.

After taking iboga the second time:

This vision is the absolute vision, the Bwiti, if you meet Nzame, you will have access to absolute knowledge (see the myth of the tree of knowledge).